The world around me has been filled with such violent highs and lows. Sometimes I can’t even catch my breath, as a wonderful celebration is ripped from me and I fall into the same habits. The habits that get me down, the ones that blur my vision, that allow me to miss all of the amazing things life has to offer. I can’t rid myself of them and they seem to steadily grow. I sweat the small stuff, I fear the big stuff. I’m an emotional HOT MESS.

I concern myself with pointless things, but these things seem so necessary. These are the things that I enjoy and care about. So what am I to do?

My loved ones, both by blood or otherwise are in a state of war. They, like myself, are battling their inner demons, so that they may find their mantras. Sometimes we come off as too arrogant, while our only aim is to discover and learn from others, not to put them down. We could all benefit from being better listeners.

All I can do is work slowly and be proficient at what I do. Hopefully, at the end of this battle, I am the victor and we’ll all see what I’m really about. 

I have decided partially, that I am not cut out for this, or really anything. I have so many dire issues, that lash out like ugly snakes, corrupting my once calm mind. The snakes latch onto my loved ones and try to pull them down into the never ending amount of negative views that seem to be my home. I have tried to abolish these feelings, spiritually and otherwise, but they return like a yearly cold, ever waiting to ensnare my system with all of it’s horrid power. I am a slave to it’s embrace, I am a pawn in it’s strategy and lately, especially today, I have come to realize that I am even further from beating it then before.

I have searched for a remedy, I have consoled others, to try and find some special rite, one that will drive away this madness. I have been unsuccessful in my tries, as today I attacked one who has, to the best of his ability, tolerated my hideous ways for many years. Even worse was the fact that my poisonous words, were about those in great need and whom have experienced pain and suffering like I have never known. Nothing I have ever felt, no pain of the heart or the body, is as great as their situation. I am so shocked at the person that said those terrible things. It’s like I’ve got my own version of Hyde, lurking around every corner, licking his lips at every opportunity to put someone down. I don’t know this person, but it seems there is no one else left. I finally understand in some part, my self suffering, lashed upon me by the forces of nature, as a way to teach me Karma. I fear I have gone to far down this path, this is my fate now. I feel the largest sorrow for those I have let down and will continue to let down. Those who thought me to be a wonderful soul, full of love and compassion, when underneath there is only a monster. I am a MONSTER and that’s all I’ll ever be.

Mike Wolf

Hey Guys,

A month or two ago, Hello Hollywood challenged our fans to make a difference, by creating their most thoughtful and creative way of saying Stop H8. This cause is something that is so important to the guys and I, and we are so pleased with the turn out. We have been so busy with a number of things and with all of the great submissions, we never got a chance to select a winner.

And now, to announce the winners!!!

1st place goes to: Well here’s the deal! I liked both of these entries so much, that both of them win!

Congratulations to Lisa L (and her friends in the video) and Rachel Buerge and Stephanies Snodgrass for their entry! Both the chalk drawing and video were quite amazing!

I loved all of your submissions very much and I’m sorry to those who didn’t win. Know that we will have several contests in the future that you can try for!

Check out the winner’s entries:

Lisa L-

I will post yours in a video blog.

Rachel and Stephanie-

Thank you guys! You will be receiving an email from HelloHollywoodContest@gmail.com with more information on how to collect your prizes. (Give us at least a week to reply).

But also, we had one more entry that was void, because unfortunately, it’s creators are from Barcelona! However, we really loved the video anyway, so we’ll be sending you guys the prize pack for second place! Marçal, Aida, Oriol & Aida, you’ll be receiving an email too (please allow us a week as well).

I will post their entry in a video blog too!

Thanks to everyone who entered! It was so amazing guys! Seriously!

Mike Wolf

XOXOXO

PS. See some of you this weekend for the fan photo shoot! Who’s gonna show me their teeth!?